Dear 2011

Oldie but goodie!

Dear 2011,

As I'm sitting here typing, I'm reflecting on the numerous memories that 2010 gave me. As Trey S. would say, I've had a lot of Passion, Pain, and Pleasure. The kind of passion that could only ignite the fiercest fire, the type of pain that could wipe out a nation, and the best pleasure of meeting some of my greatest fears and goals.

Well 2011, I stand here today to let you know what you are going to do for me this year. You are going to allow me to prosper, grow, learn and exceed. You will give me success, not by the world's standards but by Gods. You will be hard enough to give me a challenge and keep me on my toes and easy enough on me because I need a break. You will bring me great friends, fun times, awesome memories, and a love that will surpass all happiness.

To 2010:

You are long gone and passed away. Thank you for the hurt, the joy, the pain and the rain. The hurt to make me stronger, the joy to lighten up my life, the pain to allow the backed up tears to release, and the rain so that I could dance in it. I am moving on from you, I am letting you go and everything that was in it. I have a meeting with 2011, which seems to be a promising investment! So long and good riddings, may you stay in the past and not be jealous of my future!

To God:
I now understand what it means when you told me "This will not be easy" "Cast all your cares on me" "I love you" "You are uniquely and divinely made" "It is my will and my way!" Lord, only you know that this has been the most trying, significant, expressive, growing and learning experience for me over the past 12 months. I deeply desire to be within your will and do things your way. Although this won't be "easy" I will cast all my "cares" on you, I will confide and "love" you wholeheartedly, I was "made" to give you the glory, and O yes Lord please let it be your "way!" I pray for restoration, peace, strength, joy, love, respect, and stronger faith for 2011. I know this is not my permanent home and everything and anything is only temporary. Thank you Jesus, for the life you have given me and my son and have continued to protect. I stand before you a sinner and asking for forgiveness and mercy! As I realize you are not through with me yet, I can shout "Hallelujah"!!! Going into another day/year only you know my destiny and I surrender and give you full control!! Love you Jesus forever and Amen!

To my son Marcel D. Honzu Jr.:

Although not born until July 14th, 2009, October 2008, you and I were one since that day.  You have given me THE most passion to love, to be considerate, to have patience, and endurance. Traveling down this road with you for the past 17 months has been THE greatest experience in my life. You will never be alone in heart or in spirit, God will always be by your side, as one day I will not be here in physical but will be until the day I go home guaranteed. You are my joy, when I look in your eyes, I see the blessing that God has truly given me! You are covered, seed planted, and a good harvest you shall reap. I wouldn't know what to do without you, although mommy needs her breaks sometimes, I'm thinking of you always! I didn't know it was gonna be you, I didn't know you'd make me cry as I watched you sleep, you'd give me the best conversation of my life, and the best company that I'd ever need. As you lay here on my chest, our hearts beat at the same pace. You are and forever will be my heart, my soul, and my love. I love you Jr. and nobody and nothing will ever come between that!

To my Mother:

You are an angel sent from heaven! I adore you and love you with all my heart. You have stuck by my side through everything and I truly know that God has gifted me with a great parent, friend, and confidant! I'm so happy to have you in my life and you will never know how much I look up to you! A mother holds their childs hand for a little while but in their hearts forever they will be. You are so smart, gifted, beautiful, and intelligent, I can't wait to share many more memories and years with such a special person as yourself!!! Love you mommy!!!!

To my Sisters and Brother:

I cannot begin to explain the process that God took to choose all of us to be united in blood. I wouldn't pick any other family to be a part of. We have came a long way and had many ups and downs, as we all are different in multiple ways, we are the same in love. I love you Darius Pierce, as the pain in my side, the smile on my face when you're happy, and baby bro, I always got yo back. I love you Nefatiti Boone, as the classy, take no mess, you betta get on board or you gettin kicked off , big sis you have been! I love you Niccala Turner, you are the wisest, classiest, don't mess with my fam, big sis I know. You have carried us through the rough, you have beared a burden that I couldn't imagine and I thank you for that. Moving forward in love my lil bro and my big sis's WE ALL WE GOT lol I can't wait to create more family joys, experience sorrows together as one so that we may recognize those joys. I pray success, togetherness, peace, and strength. I love my nephews and nieces as well and can't wait to watch them grow and grow!!!!

To my 3 besties, Shatara Magby, Ariel Dowdell, Vashitta Johnson:

We have shared so many common interests and dislikes over the years. Our kids are growing in front of our eyes and we are getting pleasantly seasoned together. I love you, my three sisters and wouldn't trade you in for the world. You ladies have made my life that much better, through all the pain, through all the sorrow, through all the joy we have had some great times! I look forward to us making new memories and reflecting on old ones and laughing. I have shared individual experiences with all yall and yall know how we do "Thas Wassup!"  Sistas stand up, we got to do better for God, our kids, ourselves, and our family!!! Can't wait 2011, is gonna bring us heaven!!!

To my FB Fam:

Where to start, yall know I couldn't do this without shouting yall out. Some of you have touched me greatly and your words have pushed me through some tough times. Thank you for your support and encouragement. It's funny the ways multiple journeys have us all on one path. I wish all of you the best in all you do, I ask if there was anything I have said or done that was offensive that it be forgiven, I am only human! So, going into 2011 with yall and without some of yall, forget me not and so happy to call you some type of friend!! I wish I could give individual shout outs in this but it's already so long lol. If I have taken the time out to comment, post, or say something to you then you already know what you mean! Even if I have not done that much with you then I at least probably thought about cha! Some of you I have actually had the pleasure of meeting in person and yea I have realized it is some great people out there!!! So I pray you guys wanna move forward with me as well! Toast to more friendships, better understandings and may the good times roll!

Lastly, To You know who you are:

You are special to my heart. I can't say why or when or even give you one good reason, but unknowingly you have made an impression on my life and made a transition for me well worth it. I don't feel the need to express or give any explanation to anyone reading this but will say that through the ups and downs we have experienced, it was a lot left unknown but an understanding that we both shared. So many memories and good times we had, I'm glad to have had you in my life. You are one of those people I will never forget, I figure if in such a short time of knowing you if you could touch me like that then it was def worth a mention. Although, I will probably never know if you felt the same about me, it's probably best because we could never make it be.  If you are reading this, then hopefully your heart just skipped a beat, in knowing that you mean that much to me. I take you as you are and leave you where you stand on the road to becoming a better man.  I know we will both move forward, hopefully to cross paths in the future but if all else fails and I never get the chance to say it..... 8-3-1.